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I’ve not written this phrase I’m about to, for ages…

“Dear diary” it’s been nearly a year, give and take, since I’ve last sincerely written “your name”. Time seems to pass by so quickly, whether or not you’re enjoying it. Sigh.

As I was on my way to school, this very morning, I started thinking and realized something. Though I, 21 of age, taking my Bachelors Degree in Business Administration, I still have no idea what I’m pursuing for my future. I’ve studied through Academics, Computing, Visual Communication, Economics, Law, English, and now Business. Yet I’m still in dilemma. Is this really what I want in my career?

During my childhood days, I’ve dreamt of being a lawyer, it was somewhat my ambition. But then, being the lousy student I was, it was an impossible dream to achieve. However, I did make it, I was able to study the subject. But, I gave it up. Why? I’m not too sure either. Probably I lack the confidence. I fear the embarrassment of failure.

Sometimes I think I have various split personalities. A part of me is firm, suitable to pursue a career as a lawyer. A part of me is ambitious, suitable to pursue a career as a businesswoman. A part of me is a princess-like girl, hoping to be pampered, living a life in luxury. A part of me is a girl filled with ideas, a possibility of being a novelist. And the last part of me, the artistic side of me, a career in graphics/animation or fashion design. Though all worlds apart, yet all, just me. I favorite all fields, yet unable to decide on which is best.

My youth is near its end, my dreams should be near achievement, or may never be. Yet I’m in confusion, unable to decide. Should I just let nature take its course? Or should I look beyond and strive for the better? What should I become? What has become of me?