♥ Princessa's Royal Diary ♥ - Royalty has never been so PINK!

It's been a horrible week, I'm tired, moody though I pretend to be cheerful and EXTREMELY stressed though it's not at all obvious, I hope. Nothing is going well, neither at work or at home. I can barely breathe. I realise I have no one I could talk to, no one to turn to, no one cares at all.

Pardon me for not illustrating my sentences properly... Anyway...

Last night, the moment I stepped into my living room, I collapsed on the sofa immediately. Thereafter, I just laid there thinking of "stuff" while watching television till about 3am.

There's this series (I can't remember the title) about a college girl who could communicate to God and she would try to help and understand people she comes across.

This episode she encountered a lady with a 8 year old boy who was dying (but she didn't know that straight away), while her good friend was behaving strangely moody. It took her a while to find out that this boy's interest in death was because he was dying, and the reason for her friend's "mood" was because it was his mum's birthday but she had already passed away.

The cruel fact is that the boy will eventually die, and her friend's mum is dead. It's sad, you can't control things that will eventually happen or changed things that have already happened. This is reality.

I guess the whole point is to understand, be there while you can, and take it easy when it’s gone.

The key is to understand that it is happening, and not why it's happening. Things happen, and sometimes there's no reason for it. No matter how much you wish you can turn time back, it's never going to happen.

I'm going to collect my stuff at my boyfriend's place this Saturday, but I have this fear of opening the door and seeing something or someone else.

I hate facing reality, I don't want to face reality, I don't want to know the truth (whatever truth there is to know). However, reality seems to keep knocking at my door.

Everyone has a certain value, a price tag pinned on while they exist or seize to exist. Unfortunately, to you I have no value, no price tag, I'm nothing.

I finally understand that I actually do not understand anything at all.