♥ Princessa's Royal Diary ♥ - Royalty has never been so PINK!

Gosh, it's only a couple of months and my confidence and everything is COMPLETELY GONE!

I was told I have average creativity only. AVERAGE! Do you know what average means? It means I'm a incompetent designer. Average is like I can't design anything that people would go "wow". The "best" reaction I'd hope to receive for my designs would be, "ok lah". That is a complete insult to a designer. Furthermore, I'm not a "fresh" designer. This has been my freelance job for 9 years. Sigh. 9 years! Pathetic.

My Creative Director dreams is completely dashed. A person with just "average" creativity can NEVER be a Creative Director.

/me kicks and screams... NOOOooo...!!!

I had the right? Since when did I have the right? Please enlighten me? I never had the right/authority to do anything. That is basically why I don't do anything in the first place. Everytime I try to suggest something you make me feel as though I'm talking rubbish. Duh.

Yes, I'm so not initiative/proactive. Helping people is bad. I feel betrayed. From this second fore, don't even DREAM of me coming over to ask if you need help. IT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! I'm serious. Period.

DO NOT and I mean DO NOT humor me with the crap about formatting is a contribution. I said it before and I'll say it again, that is CRAP work! It's not a contribution! It is pathetic! Any Tom, Dick or Harry can do it. If you can't, you are incompetent! Didn't I say that before? Humor me by saying that, it is important ever again and I'll freak snap your head off! I'm serious. Period.

I do not understand why you want me to go through this. I already know it's going to be bad. I already said, my role is insignificant. Stop humoring me by saying that I'm of any value. I'm not given that kinda of responsibility to have a significance in the first place.

The sense of achievement gain from seeing my blogskins designs used by strangers is so much more than what I do day after day. I have no authority, no respect, no nothing. Please stop humoring me with all that "motivation speech". I can't bring myself to buy it ever again.

Did I mention I have poor communication skills and I'm so not a team player?

Come to think of it, it is true. After all, I only got straight A's for presentation skills in class, how could my communication skills be good? I should stop blogging, probably no one understands a word I'm saying anyway.

I'm so not a team player, I just practically played numerous competitive team play sports during my "youth" that's all. My medals seriously doesn't compliment my team spirit at all.

Sigh. It's pathetic, my whole life is a hypocritical, masked portrait!