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This week has been really frustrating. I've been trying really hard not to get into the unavoidable argument but unfortunately it still happened.

I really don't know what to say anymore. Home is a mess, work is somewhat just as bad. Everything added together, and it really became quite depressing.

I can't get across to my sis to give her more confidence in herself. Her suicidal thoughts is really bothering me. Why can't my mum be a little bit less bias and be show actual concern to my sis? I really hate to see my sis so depress and giving up just like that. Why can't I do anything about it...

One good thing is my youngest sis seems to be doing well. My mum basically gives her everything she wants. Happy and upset all at the same time. Humanity is so contradicting.

It's so not balanced. One is getting the heavens the other getting hell. But there is nothing I can do about it. Am I really so useless. Why can't I make anything right?

People at work has been the closest thing I have to an actual family and I so blow it with my bro. I just don't understand why he has to push it so hard.

It's so confusing. I don't know who to trust who not to.

I really didn't want to do that appraisal, I wasn't ready for it. There's too much up on my mind and everything is so negative. Why must it be now? Why not earlier? Why not later? Why must it be now?

I seriously don't even know how to face my bro at work. I don't know how to encourage my sis. I don't know how to pretend to be happy in front of monkey.

There's one last thing that have been supremely bothering me but I can't reveal it. It's a pride thing I guess.

I kinda wish I was on better terms with bro right now... If "mother" was back, that would be good too... I guess I'm really not in the right state of mind to return to work... Anyway my family there has vanished already.

What to do next...