♥ Princessa's Royal Diary ♥ - Royalty has never been so PINK!

I've decided to get out of the political circle of the horrifying "working society" and completely isolate myself for now till forever? - Forever is a little over the edge, probably just a couple of weeks/months until something miraculous happens, perhaps...

The point isn't the isolation but the understanding of reality and the acceptance of the, or rather, my cruel fate that I've landed myself into. Like I've said in my earlier entries, "Trust no one but yourself" - The world is an undeniably sad, cold, cruel place. To survive the only way is to crumble your competition. Sadly, I not even qualified to attain someone to compete for the trophy that doesn't actually exist in the first place. It may sound very much contradicting, but yes, that is exactly that state I'm at. I'm in a state of completely confusion - self creating contradiction.

Don't bother reading further, the more you read the less sense it would make.

The point, I guess, is that, I'm in a state of - "Nothingness". I have lost my enthusiasm in everything, be it work, play, everything. Why am I wasting my time trying to help others when I'm not even able to help myself? Where is the love - a perfect song to be played at this very moment, sadly it isn't played.

Blabbering off I go trying to make some sense of the mixed up emotions contained within me. Where is my place? Where do I stand? Where do I belong? Not here for sure, I guess?

See the lack of confidence in myself? Not only have I lost my ego, I've lost my strength for any battle that may be coming my way. I admit defeat. I do not wish to go on.

Throughout these pathetic months, I've learned the facts of life. If that is what you define as self-improvement, I have plenty, more then I would ever want.

One after another, they have forsaken me, friends as well as fore... - It sounds a little more profound when I put it this way. Ha. Joke. I'm playing with words to entertain myself. Ignore me.

It's been a long, long, time since I've written something worthy enough for me, myself, to re-read. Is it time to start? I've put aside everything for way too long. It is time to concentrate on something that would allow me to attain the sense of achievement that I've not felt for... 8 months? Yes, that's about it.

Do not seek my assistance, you will not get any. Sad but true, this is what you have taught me - never go beyond my territory, wherever that may be.