♥ Princessa's Royal Diary ♥ - Royalty has never been so PINK!

It seems my mind is clustered with chunks of stuff right now. It's amazing how one person (that lead to many others) can affect the balance. Memories are like totally rushing back. Okay, not totally rushing, but it's returning, bit by bit.

Admittedly, there's not much feelings in this memories. It's like dead images flashes across my mind. I can't feel what I felt then, but I can remember bits of actions I did and words I said. But, of course, these flash backs don't come in the right sequence so a lot of crucial data is lost in the process.

I'm trying my best not to self-judge too much. And I'm pretty sure there's this major thing that I haven't recalled. Basically, why I don't remember is probably cause I intentionally wanted to forget. I've pretty good memory, unless I choose not to. That's basically how I win arguments and get things my way. Ooops, too much information.

I'd love to share more details, but I'm still trying to like straighten out the memories and filling in the blanks. Not much luck there yet, not really putting in the effort to recall. If it comes, it comes. If it doesn't, guess that's just the way the story goes. It's just memories anyway, not like I have mystical powers that can change what has already happened. Some mistakes are left, mistaken. And some choices are left, made. It's how the world revolves. And I'm sooo not making sense.

I don't know. I guess I haven't been jotting my thoughts down lately. Before everything becomes an empty sheet of paper, it's time to just type some of it down. Who know? Someday, this may become great inspiration for my book!

My dream is to write a journal-novel-book-thingie and, of course, a series of fictional novels. I'm not big on short stories, I know it's like a big thing these days but I kinda prefer the old school ways - Wanna write a book? Write a BOOK!

The end of a writer's road is becoming a novelist with an excellent sub-editor to fine tune it to perfection!

Now, that's one hell of an inspirational phrase to boost my own confidence. Agreed?